It has been a tough week since I got back from my holiday. Everyday seems to be a struggle to get up. I had been wanting to get back to running just to shake everything off. It has been raining and it is impossible to get out and run.
I don't want to sound negative but everything at work is just black now. I am starting to question myself if I made the right decision of leaving my life abroad. Turning back on my independence and freedom in exchange to the life I am living now with my family.
I honestly don't want to think that I made the wrong move. The decision of coming back home was a move that I thought over and over. But in this negative situation, I cannot help but ask myself of the things that matter and how I see my future with regards to how I am working to achieve that future that I long for.
After job hopping and some traveling, I have come to realize that I don't want to be rich and live in an expensive lifestyle. I just want a comfortable laid back and secure future.
For now, I wanted my future to be related to traveling. And to realize this, I want to open a guest house or a hostel in a foreign land where backpackers often visit.
This is not so much of an income generating business but meeting people and exchanging travel stories is one thing that I enjoy most.
Running a hostel does not require high maintenance compared to running a hotel.
I once stayed in a hostel in Seoul where the owners clean the house themselves and leaves the house in the evening, meaning only guest remains in the house during night time. They just leave a note and number to call incase of emergency.
The couple treat everyone as family. People just come and go in the hostel.
(common living room of stay korea in Seoul)
Ideally, aside from running a hostel in a far away country, I would like to be a part time college professor. Running the hostel in the mornings and do teaching in the evenings. I would like to teach a business related subject in the University. I have not tried formal teaching, but I have a strong feeling that teaching in the University is something that I would enjoy doing.
Now coming back to reality, None of the present things I am doing can lead me to achieve this goal for the future. That is why I am burned out easily.
To my friends who reads this blog, kindly get in touch with me and tell me what you think about how I see my future. Do you think it fits me? I need your thoughts
