Not that bad after all

Driving on the way home yesterday, I drove pass the vast rice fields as the sun was slowly setting. Looking at the window I was greeted with this view.

I had to pull over and roll down my car window and hurriedly took my phone and captured this view.

(my hometown)

This view somewhat reminded me of the time when I was in Narok, Kenya doing a 3 day safari and looking at the one of the best sunsets of my life.

It was an exhilarating feeling that I was halfway around from my country and I was one with wilds at its best.

(narok kenya)

With the negativity I have towards this seemingly lifeless sleeping town that I am living, I continually struggle of thinking of the exciting life away from my comfort zone, thus making my hometown a place that I need to vacate.

Looking at the Beautiful sunset yesterday, it made me realize wherever I will be, we are all under one sky and we share the same sun, no matter how nice and ordinary looking it sets at our angle in this side of the world.

Arriving home yesterday made me feel its not that bad after all...........

Yet the struggle continues. Have a blessed holyweek

How I see my future

It has been a tough week since I got back from my holiday. Everyday seems to be a struggle to get up. I had been wanting to get back to running just to shake everything off. It has been raining and it is impossible to get out and run.

I don't want to sound negative but everything at work is just black now. I am starting to question myself if I made the right decision of leaving my life abroad. Turning back on my independence and freedom in exchange to the life I am living now with my family.

I honestly don't want to think that I made the wrong move. The decision of coming back home was a move that I thought over and over. But in this negative situation, I cannot help but ask myself of the things that matter and how I see my future with regards to how I am working to achieve that future that I long for.

After job hopping and some traveling, I have come to realize that I don't want to be rich and live in an expensive lifestyle. I just want a comfortable laid back and secure future.

For now, I wanted my future to be related to traveling. And to realize this, I want to open a guest house or a hostel in a foreign land where backpackers often visit.

This is not so much of an income generating business but meeting people and exchanging travel stories is one thing that I enjoy most.

Running a hostel does not require high maintenance compared to running a hotel.

I once stayed in a hostel in Seoul where the owners clean the house themselves and leaves the house in the evening, meaning only guest remains in the house during night time. They just leave a note and number to call incase of emergency.

The couple treat everyone as family. People just come and go in the hostel.

(common living room of stay korea in Seoul)

(one of the hippest hostels i have stayed)

Ideally, aside from running a hostel in a far away country, I would like to be a part time college professor. Running the hostel in the mornings and do teaching in the evenings. I would like to teach a business related subject in the University. I have not tried formal teaching, but I have a strong feeling that teaching in the University is something that I would enjoy doing.

Now coming back to reality, None of the present things I am doing can lead me to achieve this goal for the future. That is why I am burned out easily.

To my friends who reads this blog, kindly get in touch with me and tell me what you think about how I see my future. Do you think it fits me? I need your thoughts